The Circle of Sisterhood

Last night I had a very interesting dream about passing on ancient “sisterhood” knowledge to my daughters.

We were standing on top of a mountain, yet it was green, lush, and flat like a grassy field.  We were overlooking more beautiful land.  It had the feeling of Ireland, perhaps Scotland. (My soul is calling me there so I’m not surprised.)

We were dressed in long white garments and our arms were outstretched as if welcoming the energies.

“My daughters” I said. “Do you see what we can do?”

We heard the cry of a newborn in the distance.

At that point I passed on some ancient knowledge to the girls about the cry of the baby and its meaning, but I don’t remember the exact words.

We reveled in the bliss.  In the power that we held.  In the love and the bond between us, and between all sisters.

Then we flew.  I demonstrated first.  I remember having the distinct feeling of having to be careful coming down again to standing, like it was an effort to “put on the brakes” so to speak.

My girls watched and took off themselves.  We flew together above this expanse of green and it was fabulous.

Then this morning I got together w/my friends and sisters in my prosperity group for an online chat session and energy sharing session.  We envisioned ourselves in a circle, holding hands sending out energy of abundance to us all and to the world.

The circle of sisterhood abounds and it is a mighty powerful thing indeed!

Helpers, Guides, Higher Self?

What is the difference?

Well, there are varying opinions. Some shamans call helpers “allies.”  Others believe that there is a difference between helpers and guides.  Some call the Higher Self, the Inner Being.  It’s a matter of semantics I suppose.  Personally, I believe that there can be a hierarchy of sorts, yet I also believe these to be one and the same. All things are connected right?

There are: (Copied and pasted from my course Communicating Within)

1. Helpers – (rocks, stones, crystals, trees, plants, herbs, animals) We can get messages from them or through them. I have an oak tree that I communicate with and ask advice from. I often think that this oak is the spirit of my grandmother (a guide of mine). Sometimes I believe that this oak is my Higher Self.

2. Guides – spirits. They instruct, give counsel and protect. Guides often appear in human form, sometimes as archetypal figures like fairies, medieval women, or in animal form. Animals can also come to us as helpers as well, and not necessarily as a guide. For instance, you might get a message from Hawk. This may or may not mean that Hawk is one of your guides. He may just be bringing you a message on your quest to find your guide or your HS.

3. Higher Self – The pinnacle of communication. We are striving to communicate ultimately with our own Higher Selves, and the Higher Selves of those we love. Our guides can help us, as can the “helpers” along the way in this quest or for other things, but I believe the ultimate goal is to communicate w/HS.

It is exciting when we get a message from one of our guides! Guides love to be acknowledged, appreciated, and honored for what they do. They are there to help you with anything at all, whether it be getting in touch w/your HS, or a simple decision you have to make.

So then, the question that lingers now is this: Why then, do we need helpers or guides if we can just go directly to our Higher Self?

And the answer I have for that is, communicating with HS on a regular basis takes practice, patience, persistence, and discipline. Sometimes I can enter this space readily and easily. And often times I can do this for days or weeks in a row. Then, suddenly, as life will have it, “something” enters in and throws me off balance and it’s as if I’m starting from square one again.

<sigh> oh, the drama of being human!

It is a goal, a desire, and an intent of mine to remain in this connected place as often, and for as often as I can. It is a continual goal and process. And one that I am enjoying sharing with all of you!

Facilitating A New Course

I have not posted on the blog in a long time. I lost the words for a while and then have simply been “being.” I’m enjoying the contrast of things and currently in super-manifest mode again which of course always makes me feel happy and raises my vibration, and well, on it goes.

I have started a new course teaching various ways to get in touch with your guides called Communicating Within. I started on a yahoo group and am now moving over to my friend Melanie’s site Wise Ways Of Women. My first round of participants are guinea pigs (thank you my friends!) and I already have new ideas about how to expand it in the future.

Black Bear has been speaking again and is helping me with the manifestation of the course and Hawk of course is here.

Interestingly, Lizard showed up when I asked for help with the beginnings. Lizard being a sign of releasing ego. Thanks Lizard!

I have had more helpers show themselves in the past couple of weeks and will write more about them under “Helpers.”

If you are interested in joining us for the course, please send me an email to: wombwhisperer@yahoo.com for details.

Sky Phenomenon

Each time my oldest daughter and I go somewhere together, just the two of us,  something magical happens.   This almost-four-year old is a magical creator and I’m grateful to her for pointing things out to me that I normall wouldn’t see.

Several weeks ago we were on a “date” of sorts – just the two of us, driving along toward the ice cream shop.

“Look Mommy!” she exclaimed, as she pointed out the window.

What I saw was something I had never before seen in my life, but had heard about only a couple of weeks before.  It was a rainbow, but not really.  It was a horizontal “rainbow” in the sky – thick in the middle, with only three colors: pink, yellow, and blue/green.  The “rainbow” sort of just ended in a cloud. 

As I drove I marveled at this site and remembered a friend telling me that she had seen a similar thing at the beach only weeks before.  This was exactly what she described.

Later, a friend pointed me toward this site which explained what it was that we saw.  A circumhorizon arc.

Very very cool!  When we got to the ice cream place it was gone.  I looked at it out my window until we reached our destination.  As soon as we got out of our car it had disappeared.

Testing My Creative Powers

Tonight as I spoke to Grandmother Tree she told me it would be safe to share and document.

I have spent the last two months testing my powers so to speak.  Some of it was deliberate, some of it I did on a subconscious level.  A word of warning to those of you testing yours.  Be very very careful in your intent and in your words and thoughts.

I had had a spirit baby surrounding me for many months.  I have a friend who is very in tune to spirit babies and thought perhaps I had one.  This was during the Spring.   I assured her that I did NOT have a spirit baby around me, that my husband and I were absolutely positively finished having children, that we felt blessed to have the two daughters that we have and that that was emphatically THAT.

I didn’t even really speak to this spirit baby but I felt him around me.

Then one day my husband and I had a moment.  I know how silly that may sound.  In this moment I thought, well, if it’s meant to be, it will be.  And so it was.

At 41, and 46 respectively, hubby and I were not prepared to have another baby.  There are many many reasons why and those of you reading who know our history with our second daughter will empathize.  No.  We could not handle another baby in this family.

I spent a week trying to convince myself that this was good.  I spent a week listening to all the preconceived rules I’ve learned; rules such as “you’ve made your bed, now lie in it.”  Rules like, “Suck it up, be stoic.”  Rules that Story Waters says are not necessary.

I had a healing arts class the next weekend and we worked w/toning and sound therapy. It was my turn to be in the middle of our healing circle and when the toning/sound was over I had an epiphany and a breakdown.  I did not want to birth this baby.  I was testing my abilities.  Unconsciously.

I set out on some guided imagery with the help of my shaman/teacher and released this spirit with Love back to Source.  I saw one of my (new) guides come and take this spirit and they both assured me that all was well.

What this spirit wanted from me was acknowledgement and love.  That’s all. 

I have already learned many lessons from this spirit and it has only been 5 weeks since the day I allowed him in.  Lessons I may write about another time.  For now, though, these lessons are all about one thing, and one thing only.

LOVE.

Grandmother Tree Speaks

I discovered this giant oak tree several months ago while riding my bike on an old and overgrown golf course site.

 I was drawn to her immediately.  I know this tree is female and has the energy of grandmothers throughout the lifetimes.

Majestic, stoic, encompassing, wise, sheltering, open, this tree is the embodiement of love.  Every time I go to this tree I get a message and am overwhelmed with love and emotion.

I went tonight.  I needed to.

Tonight I went to ask for a message.  It was a message of love.  What else would it have been?

Grandmother tree told me that there are so many expressions of love that they are as different but as similar as all the branches of her.  Different, but the same.

These messages I get are often so very simple, yet are profoundly powerful when I receive them.  This was no exception.

Where Did The Words Go?

Here’s a quote from Shakti Woman, Feeling Our Fire, Healing Our World by Vicki Noble that perfectly describes why I have not posted here in a while.

“The more a person practices and develops shamanic healing, the less can be said about it in precise, rational, linear ways. The experiences are so direct and often so profound that to translate them into words and concepts takes an extra mental effort – a step of mediation that has to be inserted in between the experience and one’s communications of it. The English language, and the Western mode of communication, work against the expression of shamanic truths by virtue of what they have left out of the picture.”

Can I ever relate to that. I often wonder if I should abandon this blog, (and I haven’t even made posts yet about the really interesting stuff!) because it sometimes feels so inadequate a description of things; somehow trite or silly even.

I am interested in sharing some of my womb whisperings and will soon be making this an income-producing, regular practice.

I’ll post more about it when the time is right.

I’d also love to talk some about astrology.

More Doves

Now, I know that pigeons and doves are closely related. I also know what they each look like.

I feel the need to say that because while my life has been pretty magical lately, even I sometimes am astounded.

Today I was pulling into a parking lot taking my girls to swim lessons and two cars down were two doves. Not pigeons. Doves. Just sitting as still as they could be looking at me.

It was I who noticed them this time. I pointed them out to my girls, but they were clearly there for me. They watched us get out of the truck and walk away, never even moving.

They are beautiful birds with clear, knowing eyes.

Dove/Pigeon’s Wisdom Includes:

• Brings peace and love

• Understanding of gentleness

• Spirit messenger

• Communicates between the two worlds

From http://www.geocities.com/~animalspirits/index20.html

Womb Whisperer

While thinking about the term “Womb Whisperer,” I came across this last night:

From the book Shakti Woman: Feeling Our Fire, Healing the World, The New Female Shamanism.

“A woman shaman, like a spider spinning, must learn to lead from the womb. To move our attention from the head to the belly, from the mind to the body, a woman must learn to read the signals and learn to trust them. Otherwise she’ll never be sure of the difference between her intuition and those little fearful voices in her head that tell her to be careful, stop, don’t and so on.”

Grandmother Wisdom

I’m feeling the need to give my other grandmother some credit today.  My father’s mother is the grandmother I spoke of in an earlier post, the one who spoke to animals.  She had many other mystical qualities too, but mostly she was an Earth mother.  She was very much connected to the Earth and its inhabitants.

My mother’s mother on the other hand was very “airy.”  She was an Aquarius.  She was also a nurse.  She finished nursing school in the 1930s when there really weren’t that many women in colleges at all.

She was a healer.  She worked in a hospital for a little while but mostly she made house calls.  When I was a child I went with her on some of these calls and many of them did not involve traditional nursing practices at all.  Sometimes it only involved Love.  Do you understand what I mean?  Sometimes these people only needed my grandmother’s love.

That is what healing is really all about.

My teacher says that sometimes the people who come to her only need to be touched.  That is the healing for them.

Several months ago I decided that my new field of study would be LOVE.

And here I am.

Thanks grandma GG and grandma T. 🙂